January 3, 2003 at 10:14:00 PM CST » [listening to x ] [my mood isx ]hot tip: invest in babies. ugh. i hate being old. and not just feeling old, but being outdated and past my prime already. i pick up the paper and read about some little sod, 15 years old with a magazine she built from the ground up with thousands of subscribers in little under a year. then i turn over to some circle-jerk link list about some other 14 sod with a fucking 'port_folio_' using the same shitty trends (that sadly enough I contemplate) and being enlisted into the elit(ist)e ranks of some webdesign team in sweden. fuck talent and experience; it's all about the buzz and trendwhoring and whatnot. i get so fucking frustrated and for what? some pimply-ass kid who gets hand jobs from unemployed skinny white guys with bald heads and moby glasses griping about clients and rips and pixel-dragging and 45 degree angles. maybe because i'm not ethnic enough for my own good to be on oprah touting crap about how people need to be nice to each other and how to apply make-up correctly (More is never less!) mayeb because i can't see myself in 10 years doing what it is that i love because my dreams will always have that twinge of inadequacy from the fact it took me a college degree and a few lame-ass internships to get enough socks to fill up crotch enough and get the slight opportunity to finally do what it is that that i say and thus fulfil everything in my life. or maybe because i wish i was that kid. nah. just those fevers again. and oprah's lame anyways. |
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